Contrary to popular opinion, race is
not always the elephant in the room in America. Sometimes, it is just a
three hundred-pound gorilla in a car. Dateline: Spring 2008. Professor
Abdulrasheed Na'Allah, now Vice Chancellor of Kwara State University,
was convener and host of that year’s annual meeting of the African
Literature Association in his former base at Western Illinois
University, Macomb. America is famous for her middle-of-nowhere backyard
villages where the local who makes a rare thirty-mile road trip to the
next village to buy Budweiser at a cheaper rate claims to have travelled
to the end of the world. Throw a University into one such
out-of-civilization American backwater and it acquires the chieftaincy
title of “College Town”. Macomb is one such village, sorry, college
town. Continue...
How to get to Macomb? No problem, said the poet, Obi Nwakanma, who
was then based in Saint Louis, Missouri. You just fly to Saint Louis.
Remi Raji will join us from Ibadan and we will have a grand reunion
before driving out to Macomb. Overestimating his knowledge of the
geography of the area like every self-respecting US-based Nigerian
writer of my generation, Ogbuefi Nwakanma boasted that Macomb was just a
two or three-hour drive from Saint Louis. We would rent a car and all
three of us would drive to Macomb. Cakewalk!
I flew happily from Ottawa to Saint Louis for the grand reunion with
Obi and Remi Raji. Two Nigerian writers under Obi Nwakanma’s roof in
Missouri – all from the Lagos-Ibadan 1980s-1990s axis of Nigerian
letters! The reunion was Nigerianly riotous! We got our beering right.
Poundo, egusi, orisirisi. More beering. The day wore on. More beering.
Stories and stories and stories of our Ibadan years. More beering, more
peppersoup. The day wore on. Obi kept reassuring us that the trip was
nothing. We would be in Macomb in no time.
We finally set out around 4 pm in the evening, hoping to be in Macomb
by 7 pm or thereabouts. For the trip, Obi had rented a capitalist car
befitting our status. After all, we were three University lecturers. The
capitalism of the car, however, excluded GPS. And we did not do
mapquest because Obi was certain he knew the way to Macomb. One hour
into the journey, it started to look like we were lost. Two hours into
the journey, it started to feel like we were lost.
Getting lost was not a problem. There were three of us with plenty of
reunion stories and we didn’t mind the drive. Where we got lost was the
problem. I still don’t know how, without really saying it, all three of
us quietly crept into consciousness of where we were lost;
consciousness of that part of America where were three black males
appearing lost in town could be bad news. We were driving through very
small villages. Your one church, one post office, one pub, one
elementary school, one grocery store, one gas station, one local
mechanic shop village where there are more American flags than there are
people. The only police station in such a village is manned by that
avuncular sheriff who descends from generations of law enforcement. The
type whose great grandfather was the village’s first police officer and
whose grandfather was the second police officer and whose father was the
third police officer. He is now helped by a second uniformed officer in
his twenties. If you bet that folks looking like us don’t usually pass
through such villages, you probably won’t lose the bet.
I stand at six feet and two inches tall, all black male of me. Remi
Raji is also a six footer. Obi Nwakanma, our driver, was in his
dreadlock days. One Igbotic accent, two Yoru-amala accents. That was a
very bad combination driving a very nice car through that type of
America. What if a cop pulled us over as was bound to happen at some
point?
By now, we had a fourth uninvited passenger in that car that was
making us so self-conscious: the gorilla, America’s three hundred-pound
gorilla. At some point, we were going to have to get gas. The girl at
the gas station convenience store couldn’t have been more than 20
years-old. It was now past 8 pm. We weighed our options: now you got
your gas but does it make sense for all three of you to crowd in on her
in the store at this hour of the evening in this middle-of-nowhere
village?
Well, we needed to pick up beef jerky, chewing gum, coffee. We needed
to pee badly. We entered the store, all three of us, wearing
exaggerated smiles and greeting her very warmly. The Nigerian accents
disappeared, magically replaced by melodious Americana slithering out
beautifully through our noses. As we shopped, we maintained the charm,
dropping unnecessary and unsolicited information that we were writers
and University people on our way to a prestigious conference in
Illinois. It was obvious that we were trying a little too hard not to
look the type, not to sound the type, not to be the type. The type? Oh,
the dangerous, threatening black male that has been constructed to haunt
white imagination in America for more than three hundred years. If this
gas station attendant felt threatened just by our presence in this
American village and called the cops, what would they see? Would they
see the poetry, the literature, the University in us? Or would they see
three threats in a car too nice for them?
I think we decided unconsciously that poetry, literature, and the
University are no match for police guns wielded by prejudice. Hence, we
behaved. We kept the girl laughing with banter and conversation
unconsciously designed to make us sound non-threatening. We charmed her
till we finished our business and drove off. Somehow, we were never
stopped, never pulled over… in Missouri.
It was almost 11 pm when we finally made it to Macomb. As we swished
past a gas station, trying to make our way to our hotel, blue and red
lights finally flashed behind us
Obi pulled over. And we waited.
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